cxii.

the sky glows white behind the dark branches,

and falls gray on the carpet,

through the blinds--

--in the canyon, a magpie stands on the flat

at the rim, surrounded by sage

the black range, streaked with snow, 

it fills half the sky,

the peaks hold the sky up,

and catch it

in their valleys, hidden 

among the ridges--

I see the road rise, a thread

up through gold

into green to brown

into black,

as it rounds across the slopes,

I see it rise up 

to the gap 

until the coast pulls it across the land

I broke all of my promises except

a few I kept

but the unkept promises range ahead

and around me, like familiar ghosts

so I love them

because I love them, I take them with me 

the road is a string held up

by the sky

the mountains dangle

on it,

it promises nothing, it

makes me 

say, though:

sometime when I've spent the last night here

and seen the last dawn, 

      casting blue shadows across the slopes,

I will make something, promises unkept

streaming from my fingers

sometime after that, I will show you 

what I've made, 

      and I'll say I made this for you

cxi.

it happened sometime in the spring,
sitting on the edge
of history, watching the light stream
through the glass

alone, at a table in the entryway

the air swirling, cold
and bright
through the sliding doors

caffeine is a poor substitute
for freedom,

warmth is held inside
it bleeds easily across the tile

outside, the street is breaking, and
the buildings bend,
flaps blowing on their hollow sides

in two days, heedless storm-water
will take them down to muck,
and melt-water will carry
the verge down into the gutter

the world is always breaking itself,
and running together,
but this time it's broken open,

jagged edges listing in the grass,
catch the hard light

who knows what else is breaking,
over the rise?

--to cold air carries the green scent
of the undergrowth,

scattered bird-song, creaking traffic,
the occasional crack of cement
giving way--

faraway, there is something
worth having,
across the threshold,

the blinding daylight--it's empty, it's nothing,
farther than fear, or hope
--but held in the shape of your hands,

in the crack of your footfalls
--breaking, shattering, reaching
the arc of your stride

is the first gasp of an unknown
promise

cx.

the mountains dark arms open
blue grey twilight glowing cool and bright above them
lamps above shadowed buildings, at the entrance
gleaming by the slope

in the parking lot still and quiet, breeze
whisking a few leaves across the dark gray asphalt

the light pooling across the lines
warm and golden behind the screen
moving behind the counter
     kids running around the tables--

so the night's like a coat,

      --at the corner, he's wearing feathers and stripes
         for Samhain--

I made a ghost-list
to list my dead,

the name and date, I remember them
      --briefly, each
I think well of them
and I hope they're well

the soft burnt scent of summer falling to fall
hangs over the cement
the sliver moon and one star hanging next to the radio tower
the lights, cupped, gleam across the brick wall

the headlights streaming slowly
across the intersection
streaming steadily above the divider
the street makes a living altar of the night

cviii.

the moon rides the night sky, rolling to full
I think you're a bird and
you fly elsewhere, over wave
through wind, across mountain

peaks, arrayed like waves

we here below walk, sideways
the day is a dancer, moments
leap and kick, roll in a circle
arms spinning,

across the sidewalk, over the
asphalt,

some moment it will kick out
to where waves are,

where walking is and where flying
are the same place, woven
and weaving through time,

if things fall over, and roll out
of rhythm, into another

turn over each other, it's true
that it's all one movement,

far peaks and far skies, tableland
spread beyond the checkpoint,
dwarfs the arches

rivers glowing in the grassland
late summer, waves breaking

against the near shore, past
the horizon,

waves crashing in the mind only
through the snow-blocked passes
in the dark,

walk the wind blowing in from some
other coastline,

fly the wind rising across the line
from somewhere
beyond us

between the darkness, all winds
are the same wind,

if we are blown out and off course

into other places, all places are one
time, and in one wind,

dance together.

cvii.

when the winter came, some froze
and they fell

of those who fell, some crawled
forward, and some

were still, and silent--streaming elsewhere

the crack of bone on asphalt is
a thud, when someone

hits the ground,

the shatter, and falling
shards that fade into
the dust

and scrub

or the gutter,

of the shrapnel and scrap metal
some is salvageable

and some is not--the storm rolls
in over the cliffs,
waves cracking on the shore

stars bright in the inky night
trees snapping,

blows the plaza over the edge
--lost to the sky

over the valley, palms cracking

the snow comes in over the mountains
a gray wave rolling, cold

wind, ice on the road,

of those that crawled, some went
shambling, gathering scrap

through the burning summer,
the haze and rain of fall--

grinding, sometimes, or weaving
               and stumbling,

standing,

until the engine grinds, and rolls
over, somehow the piecemeal
chasis holds,

the freeway way thunders, close
but muted

as the clouds come down, the frame
shudders but holds,

shaking and shifting, it rises
along the
asphalt, the peaks crack

and the sky breaks, the wind
howls under the tires, or
the sky does,

kneel, briefly, to check the chains
for traction

scrap and sheet, pieced and gathered
shaking, rumbling, is sound
runs grinding,

at elevation, running clear
and at speed,
in the winter, though a storm

c.

the shore is a cathedral
cracks in the sky
light the stucco, and the cliffside, and the palm
trees to living glass
cut by the soft foliage on the rockface

the moon cut by rafters and pines
is holy
over the water

the moon caught in the clouds
high over the building, the smoky night
is an icon

the past strays into the future
the breathing wire
the past rings into the future like a
heartbeat, humming
like the crack of a breath on teeth
like the sight of air leaving the
throat
       cast back into the sky
  over the shoulder

these days are passed
these days have passed so that
the days to come may ring with their passing

cvi.

this place, these people--chattering under the lights

leaning against the slats, 

the mountains to the left, thunderheads glowing on the snow

may all the spirits bless this place--

these bright children, these busy citizens

walking through the city, bustling down the freeway

down by the road--under the overpass

in the shade

the sun shine bright but not sharp, 

come down upon you through the branches

the mountains hold you, just under the sky

---

the fear came to you, and you did not know

but you live, though--you are living still

you don't need to fear, I will hold you

and my grasp will not fail you, and my grip

will not falter--

if I swing you forward--you carry me forward, 

and we will go, we will all go forward, 

together--across the line, 

not one less, and not one missing